working hard or hardly working? perspective...

Some times I fell like Jana and Thearon don't understand who hard it is to do the things I've been doing, it seams like they don't appreciate how tiring it is to do the tings I do, one day I spent 5 hours on my resume, and it still wasn't done, I had a head ache from staring at a computer screen for that long, I hurt all over from sitting in an uncomfortable chair for so long, and when I got home all I wanted to do was sit down with my baby and relax for 10 min minimum, more if at all possible, after dinner I was promptly told to do the dishes and sweep and mop the floor, I did it but I was not happy about it at all, because it hurt me even more, I understand that I do need to help with house work, and I do what I can when I can I usually do things on the weekend, but Jana comes home and complains about how tired she is, and then does not help with the house work because she is to tired and she just wants to relax, and I understand that want, but its like they don't understand that I work just as hard every day and when I get home I would like to do the same thing, it is very hard for me to not want to yell at them when they asked me to do something that is, in my mind, not my responsibility to do, like cleaning up their dishes, after dinner. I'm becoming tired of this place, and I would like to get on my plane to Kansas, the sooner the better, its becoming more and more tiring, I cant wait to have my own place, even when I'm in job corps, I'll have my own space that I can relax if I want to, I can't wait until I get out of here.              

working hard on working hard

About a week ago I started to do a class called Work Success, I spend 40 hours a week doing things for it I spend 32 hours a week in the class and the other 8 hours doing at home things. I am learning a lot of new stuff and although one might think that learning how to get a job would be easy, its really not! yesterday I spent 5 hours working on my resume,  and it was draining, and very hard, you have to word it just right, and really concentrate on specific things for different company's its very complicated, and interesting at the same time. Its been hard dealing with however because Jana gets very up set about having to take me into town every day she says "it's losing me work" although I don't see how, it actually gives her the opportunity to to do more clients in a day, I'm also paying her $200.00 a month for rent and gas, as well as my food stamps, but I'm also expected to help get things for the house, such as paper towels and such, almost as though she doesn't realize that I have to get somethings for me and Dani, I understand that she has been providing for us for a while, but if I spend all my money on thing like paper towels then I'm going to have to ask her to get more important things like diapers, or shampoo for me, and things like that. I feel guilty spending the money I've worked so hard to earn, and that's not right!  sometimes I feel over whelmed, but thanks to the class I'm beginning to be able to help my self through that which is nice.